And by that I mean, myself, 10 years back, and now. A lot of things have changed, here are a few:
- My heart is in a very comfortable place now. At 19 I was confused, angry, and hid my feelings from everyone, because I was scared of rejection.
- I am so much more at ease with who I am. Growing up I was a very awkward and gawky girl. A misfit. Too tall, too broad, too manly for most girlfriends! There were times when I was told I looked like my mom’s sister, or people asked me if I had kids(when I was barely 20!) Now, I accept my physical attributes, and am happy with myself.
- I used to be a rebel, still am, but with discretion. Any mention of anything even remotely resembling putting a woman down used to rile me up like crazy. I have put my foot in my mouth umpteen times, made enemies, and generally had people run away from me. Now I have learnt to hold my tongue and now argue where unnecessary.
- Most of my friends from way back when remember me as the girl who wore clothes that were 2 sizes too big for her and who never ever paid attention to her looks. Until I was about 21 my mom shopped for me(she bought something called “free-size”), because I had no views or preferences on my clothing, and because I had better things to do, like read or meet friends. Part of the problem was that I felt guilty thinking about my appearance. I felt like I should not be superficial and shallow but pay more attention to the inner me. Now, I know better. I know that the outer my is only a shadow of my inner me, and being attentive to my outer me does not take anything away from the real me, only enhances it!
- I have learnt that I love being independent. Being the master of my own time and fate.
- The one thing I sorely miss is that feeling of being at home. The feeling that only comes when you are with mommy
, the feeling that only comes when you argue with your little sister about that hair straightener, or that shade of the dupatta!
Finally, I want to make a tag of this. What has changed in you in the last 10 years, the “You: Then and Now” tag. If you are reading this post, then consider yourself tagged!
shilpadesh
It’s amazing how we learn to be comfortable with our physical appearance as we grow
I0 yrs ago – I longed to be taller than what I was. Good post! Made me think
well said. We learn to be comfortable with ourselves.
brilliant post!!!
must do the tag after I am back to blore
Sure!
Hmm.. very good post. There are things that only TIME can teach us.
Aahhh interesting one…will take it up in a bit…requires a bit of introspection!
brilliant. can i borrow this tag?
the last one..”being at home”..it is unrivaled. i cannot seem to agree any more or any less. it is like perfect.you said it lady. one cannot get it elsewhere. being around with mom and sister. BEING AT HOME!!!
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